Whiner

After my last post I feel like a big whiner. It was a rough week, but, I'm over it. This week has been much better. I've been kind of lazy, catching up on Glee on Netflix and doing lots of laundry. Maren ran a fever and was sick for a few days, but I kind of enjoyed it. Don't get me wrong, I hate seeing her feel yucky, but I got lots of snuggles and it was kind of nice just having to stay home.
I visited with our primary president about my calling and although I am nervous, I am feeling better about it. All in all, it has been a much better week and I am grateful for it. I'm also reminded of how nice it is to be healthy. Now that my cold is mostly gone, I realize how grateful I am to be a fairly healthy person most of the time. I also appreciate when Maren feels better. While she was sick, she worried me because she would just lay around with glazed over eyes, she wouldn't eat or drink. I was really worried about her. Now that she is back to herself, I'm almost grateful for her tantrums. Okay, not really, but I am grateful that she is healthy again. I've been trying to think more positively this week and look for my blessings and it has helped a lot. Hmmm, I'll have to write another post about what I'm thankful for, especially with Thanksgiving coming up.

Overwhelmed

This last week was rough! I've had a cold which is somehow worse when you're pregnant, and my back went out on me. And to top it all off, Ben is working lots of really long hours trying to get things ready at the new office. Monday my back started to stiffen up and hurt, but it wasn't too bad. By Tuesday it was a lot worse and dumb me tried to carry Maren upstairs. She was throwing a tantrum and needed a diaper change really bad. As I was carrying her up, I don't know if my knee or my back failed, but I fell carrying her. Thank goodness she wasn't hurt. I lost some skin on my knee and hurt pretty bad. By the time Friday came I was a mess, emotionally and physically. I had extra kids at my house all day and just didn't feel good. Ben worked late that night and had to go back to work early Saturday. When Ben left on Saturday, I melted down. I thought I just can't do this today. Ben felt bad leaving me, so he called his mom. My MIL showed up a little later and took my girls for the day. I was able to get my house cleaned and rest a little. My mom and sister called and wanted to know what they could do to help. I felt kind of silly because I only have a cold. I was feeling very overwhelmed, I feel like not only do I have my own family to take care of, but I feel like I have many neighbors that are dependent on me. I don't have time to be sick. I am so grateful for my family that jumped in to help take care of me. Sunday my sweet sister brought me a pot of soup for dinner. I felt totally spoiled. To top it all off, Sunday I received a phone call asking me to meet with the bishop. Great! I was hoping for primary chorister or relief society teacher, but I was totally caught off guard by my new calling. I was called to be a primary teacher for the special needs class. I will be working with two autistic boys and one boy with some behavioral issues. I looked at the bishop thinking What??? Me??? I was totally overwhelmed. This is so out of my comfort zone. I accepted the call, but I keep wondering what on earth Heavenly Father has in store for me. He's obviously going to stretch me to my limits with this one. I would much rather do camp. Hopefully all will work out and I can learn and be patient. Here's to a better, less overwhelming week.